Frustrations [Personal]


So, following Resident Evil 7, I think the channel is going to undergo a major shift in how things are presented. This episode-by-episode system? It sucks. Do I have time for heavily edited videos? Fuck no. So what do we do? I don’t fucking know.

Look, I’m not going to sugar-coat this: maintaining the channel as it is is bullshit. It’s a sinking ship in my eyes. It’s an outdated style of presentation in a sea of copycats and clones and there is nothing defining it further than my deadpan personality and the occasional humor that comes from BroOp Gameplay episodes.

Long story short: We’re going nowhere. I understand that some people love our show… but that can only get us so far, you know? We have 450+ subscribers and average 15-20 views at the most on videos… Most of them are from me while I add the cards. That’s a shitty feeling when people who see you post stuff each day don’t even bother watching.

I know this can be considered whining or complaining, but when it’s time to realize that the model isn’t exciting, or entertaining, or even worth the effort anymore, you gotta make some changes. I love having a channel, but right now… I just don’t love the work I have to do to get things on it.

Hell, this entire post could just be what I need to type to vent and clear my head.  I’m going nowhere as an individual – on channel and off of the channel. I have hardly dream anymore; I have no realistic goals to achieve in a decent time-frame; no hobbies to fully enjoy anymore, everything feels like work instead of fun; food’s losing its taste. I’m lonely even when surrounded by friends and in a relationship.

Life sucks right now and I feel like I’m drowning. I need something to change. Something to just go right for once and as it stands it’s probably not the channel until we change something up and make it feel new again… But if the channel can change and improve, then I’ve got something to strive for and focus on. Hopefully that will bring me back to my old self.

Thank you for letting me vent. Thank you for your support.

We hope things can shine a little brighter again soon.


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